My nerves have returned, but I think it's natural to feel anxious before baby. It's a push/pull sensation; I feel prepared and ready to have her, but I'm worried about sleep deprivation and the logistics of staying on top of everything with an infant and toddler in tow. Thank goodness for the twins, and I've gotten sweet offers to help, but as a parent you want to know that you can do it on your own. When we go to the store, or as I'm watching the twin's soccer game, I think about how each experience will be different in just a few weeks. I'll use my Moby Wrap here...I'll bring the double stroller for this...It's better to just ask for a babysitter for this... I also feel like I'm losing time with Anna. I had so many years with the twins before adding a baby, that it seems a little like I'm cutting her time short. Despite my worries, I can see why people consider 2-3 years to be a good gap between kids. 2 1/2 is busy, but manageable.
I'm trying to spend a little bit of time outside of the house this week, since these moments will be few and far between soon. We went to brunch and a movie, and I went shopping alone the other day (a rare event even before pregnancy). I definitely feel like I need a little more "me" time before Margo gets here, compared to past pregnancies. As involved as the Sailor is with the kids when he's home, the older we get the more obvious it is that he doesn't realize how consuming motherhood can be. Or if he does realize it, he's gently ignoring it and appreciates that he'll head back to work at some point. He said the other day that if money weren't a factor he'd have five kids. I used to say the same, but now that we're on the verge of welcoming number four, I'd feel complete no matter how many zeros are in our bank account.
|I think she doubled in size this week|
|Vitamin D boost at brunch <3|
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